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The days are long but the years are short ?>

The days are long but the years are short

I struggle to comprehend the fact that I am soon to be a mother of an 8-year-old boy. How did this happen? The curly locks and the language that only a mother understands have long gone. They have been replaced by a short back and sides and a boy whose knowledge can exceed my own. His chest has filled out and his hands match mine in size, his legs grow by the day, longer and leaner, he is strong, he…

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A shock diagnosis ?>

A shock diagnosis

I have not written a blog post for over 2 months now and the weight feels like a ticking time bomb preparing for detonation before I am able to retrieve the words I need to save myself, another day passes and still, no words materialise. It is ironic how at times the words pour like sand in a timer, a steady flow of emotions and thoughts ready to be translated and shared, at other times there is just a void,…

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An Unconventional Mother’s Day ?>

An Unconventional Mother’s Day

Today is Mother’s day. I am a mother. Am I celebrating it? No, I am not. It is not unheard of us to take an unconventional approach to life and recent events have given us the strength and courage to pursue a life less filled with consumerism. I do not seek society’s assumption that I seek gratification from my children and wider family network for the wonderful job that I do. I know that I do a good job and…

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Caught up in the waves of life ?>

Caught up in the waves of life

My blogging has fallen by the wayside recently.  Moving house, having  2 houses for a month to manage and making the new home look presentable and to my high standards takes a lot of attention and energy. It feels like life is continually kicking us in our proverbials with no glimpse of a reprise in sight. Maybe it’s how we view life, our expectation. I have been hoping for a time of peace.  Does that really exist? That is what…

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Aboard the grief train ?>

Aboard the grief train

Grief is like a moving train that yields no time to stop, it hurtles through constantly crashing and shattering itself into pieces, pieces that can never be repaired as many get lost along the way. How do we cope with grief? The answer is somehow we do, we get by, we survive. Most things in life present us with options, death is so final we run out of options, there is no solution, no remedy, no ease of suffering. Grief…

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On the road again ?>

On the road again

When anxiety plagues your life you find yourself in a constant fight or flight battle, this not only affects your body and mind but also your life philosophy and future plans. You are torn between being so afraid of change, which makes you cling to anything familiar, yet you have that unrelenting need to keep moving in case the enemy ie yourself catches up with you. This can prove difficult in moving your life forward as you are either trapped…

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Testing our children for our own self gain ?>

Testing our children for our own self gain

My daughter has been doing ballet for the last few months, she gets dressed up in her leotard and skirt, her bun in her hair, she loves this Saturday morning routine and the sense of purpose that it brings.  That little girl she once was is being replaced with this grown up dramatic version who takes herself very seriously.  When she is in that dance studio, she is fully absorbed in the music and lets herself go, moving with the…

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Anxiety Recovery- The beginning of the Road ?>

Anxiety Recovery- The beginning of the Road

I had planned to write a post in aid of World Mental Health Day detailing my battle with anxiety.  I keep going back to the words I have written and they do not do the post justice. I seem unable to allow myself to go back to those days so dark it still makes me shudder, who would have guessed that a memory or thought can have that much power over us but anxiety is like an unspoken word when…

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Staying true to yourself ?>

Staying true to yourself

I started my blog less than 5 months ago. I was no blog expert, I had read a few but had no clear vision of what it was that I wanted to achieve. I had thought about it for a long time previous to actually taking the plunge and though it seemed like a nice idea, a cool thing to do, I knew nothing of the practicalities of hosting one. I am a technophobe so that was definitely a factor,…

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My Faithful Friend ?>

My Faithful Friend

It is fair to say I have been let down by people throughout my life and that is still something that occurs, someone significant in my life has let me down massively this year and it still pains me every day. At times, the past 7 years have been painfully lonely, especially when dealing with some of the issues I have faced within that time frame, giving up my job and stumbling my way through early motherhood, losing all the…

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